I'm almost 19 and i've been dealing with depression since i was 13. That's when i first started self harm and i remember being suicidal at that age as well, i had tried to hang myself when i was 14. i had another attempt last december. I've been on a handful of meds that are supposed to help with my depression (antipsychotics and antidepressants-turns out i have schizophrenia too but thats gotten better) the only thing that hasnt improved is my depression. I'm starting to feel very hopeless. ive dealt with suicidal thoughts every single day for over a year straight. every day. ive had plans multiple times and i've been hospitalized multiple times for it. I am feeling like giving up if my depression doesnt let up. it just makes me lay in bed all day feeling miserable. I have been on the max dose of cymbalta for a month and have had no improvement but i was just put on lithium to help with the suicidal thoughts. I feel like my depression is treatment resistant and i dont know where to go from here....