Thank you, MJ. It is a traumatic situation, and when I feel a bit more communicative, I'd like to PM you about the general outline, since it's related to all this in a very integral way. Your comments have helped a lot, and I can sense what's behind it -- you're right about that -- but it's just out of reach.

And the scale said I was two pounds heavier today, which has made it so much worse. Now I find myself thinking about what I'll be able to cut out of my meals today, to get back down. I know that's WRONG, but it's so deeply THERE for me right now.

Ugh. Thank you for your support. If you don't want a PM, let me know and I won't send one.