I am have a pretty hard time right now. Everything is going really well and it scares the crap out me. Things between me and T have never been better. I feel like I am making good progress. So she must be ready to dump me from her schedule. I got a undergraduate research position that I really wanted. So now everybody is going to find out I am not smart enough. I have been stable for several months now. So it is time for medication to stop working and enter another episode. Aaaaaah! I am just sitting here crawling in my skin about how everything around me is going to crumble to the ground and there is nothing wrong. Not one shred of evidence that anything is or will be wrong. It is just so frustrating. Why can't I enjoy my mini milestones and be proud of my accomplishments instead of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Thanks for letting me vent.