The ones that I am the most aware of are:
breaks in my routine (if I'm OK, it brings me down, if I'm hypo it makes me crazy irritable) The intensity of having routines has grown with age
work stressors, the most minor things make me spiral downward. Not being able to "hide" makes it tough
stress in general, I have zero coping skills, other than to appear to not be effected or even stressed to anyone else.
whenever I make mistakes..like normal work mistakes. I'm an accountant so mistakes at work are often very obvious to others after the fact. SOmehow this gets translated in my brain that I am a horrible ineffective loser who can't do anything right....the actually reality is that I was probably trying to do someting to quickly, and someone disctracted me while working on something.
There's probably a million others that I don't notice the correlation.
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Mental:
Bipolar 2, maybe ADD
Lamictal 400mg, Adderal XR 30mg
Non-mental:
Had severe pulmonary embolisms
Warfarin, most likely for the rest of my life
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