You are obviously having a very strong reaction to some specific triggers and it might be good to bring that up with your therapist when you see her/him. It looks as though you have a very difficult time with being lectured or berated, and that the feelings those situations bring up are a huge trigger for you.

It also sounds like you don't feel safe during these episodes. It might be worthwhile to work out a coping strategy with your therapist for when they happen. You need to figure out how to get yourself to feel safe --whether that's going into a room alone, leaving when you are able etc. You may need to set some boundaries with some of these people so you can protect yourself. These things will all take time in therapy and will also take some hard work.

I would print off what you wrote and give that to your therapist. S/he can read it in a few minutes and that can help save time in your session.

Good luck!

Lisa