Sorry that I've not posted but I'm on vacation. I need some encouragement please.

I'm watching my sisters boys for the next 90 minutes. Not a big fan of this but it is something that I am willing to do for her. Also she made a stop by a dispensary & picked up some chocolate... She said, but I know she bought some weed too because I could smell it. It makes me sad, depressed, and I want to cry. She suggested that I go to a meditation class tonight but I don't want to go anymore. What I really want to do is crawl in bed and cry. That's not going to happen though.

Now I am crying and trying to hide it from the boys. They are 7,5, & 1.