I had a breakthrough during therapy... Sort of like my mind was being blown. We made so many connections and I felt SO GOOD when I was walking back to my car. T said he was so proud of me. I even took myself out to lunch afterwards and bought myself some things for my phone.
But now, I feel horrible. I think it's my paxil withdrawal but I just feel so horrible. I miss him, I feel like I have much more to say. I am also going to court with my abusive therapist that I am trying to finish up which is causing me alot of unneeded stress. I have so much going on and I don't have a real support system other then my therapist. I really want to talk to him about this but during sessions I either shut down or just ramble randomly wtihout getting into the real problem. Then it's like BOOM DONE.
It happened today when I was connecting things from my past to how I act today. Therapy was finished so quickly. He said on top of our sessions I should start art therapy. But I am unsure about that.. I also wanted to ask for a hug at the end of session but I got scared. He does give hugs after assuring me of boundaries which is okay with me. But, now I have to wait a week until our next session
Ugh. I wanted to just vent. Sorry if this wasn't good!