Thanks everyone for the kind words! It was very nice of you to take the time to respond. I appreciate the advice on how to release the negative thoughts and it's good to have support. I didn't realize it had a term, but this "med-go-round" has been frustrated, because I don't know when I will finally find the right combination... Even one that could last for a year would be nice.

I'm curious about mindfulness, meditation, and yoga... I think I'll give those avenues a try. I've heard from a co-worker that went through a dark time that running everyday tremendously changed her outlook on life.

As a follow-up, I stopped taking the Vyvanse after being approached by a friend at work. They pointed out I seemed extremely depressed which matched the timeline of when I started Vyvanse. It was to the point where I didn't want to spoken to at work and avoided talking to people, which is not me at all! I'm a people person! So I knew something had to change.

Encouragement from you all has been great and much appreciated! Thanks!