It will be ok. It's so hard to see right now, I know because I've definitely been there. It's easier said than done, but it does get better. I've found that being on these message boards lets you know that you aren't alone. We've all had those days, weeks, months...
But finding the right cocktail is difficult so I know the frustration. Once that is fixed your mood will, change, your life will change. We're all here for you. PM me if you ever want to vent or chat, I know how lonely it can be.