Thank you all for the kind and encouraging words. It really was what I needed to hear tonight.

Thank you so much

I am in therapy now, have been for a few years, but sometimes it just feels like I'm venting. sometimes it's good and I get feedback or suggestions on how to proceed and change and develop. I have tried other therapists before but the only one I feel comfortable with is the one whose techniques I just described. She is the only one who helps me keep my chin up but I didn't have an appointment until tomorrow.

I have just lost my best friend of 3 years over nothing, and I have had a lot of people walk out on me so those kind of wounds are still tender.

I am really happy about these encouraging words, I think this is a really great forum. You guys are wonderful.... hugs all around.