Hi,

I am just now reading this thread, (or an attempt to remember all of it for my reply) Seems to me after all I have read, that I know I have in the past been thorough alot of what you went through.

Guess I just want to say, I think it is a good thing that you have stopped now the self experimentation pill popping process, and are back to from what I read just working with your Therapist and leaving the pills in excess alone.

The original question of physical harm seems to have been answered already. Some things in the past I didn't know that like when I would take 7 to 10 Excederine pills several times a day was that the asprin in them is bad on the stomach and that the generic tylenol (I cant spell the generic name right-acetimetifin?) is hard on the liver.

My self medicating for the most part more than likely had alot of bad effects on my brain so now I think I have brain damage, though seems can not be proven.

I guess when I was hitting all the different pills hard and am some ocd seems I was trying to escape. Like a way out. I guess for me at times I would just sit and count out the pills in numbers, looking and adding this and that. Lucky I was not to have died.

Telling your doctor is a big thing, never did tell mine as it is a choice of the matter. I guess I don't quite know what it is I am trying to say other than, it takes time to tell yourself you are in control of the pills and them not you. It is good you quit. Seems from my past each time it was a little more hard to stop myself from messing with the meds.

I dont do it anymore, though at times the temptation is really strong, and I just have to resist and tell myself that just aint the way to go. So much easier said than done, especially when my mind gets so overloaded with stress, hurt, and pain.

I hope you get this worked out and take care of yourself and are able to do your best from taking massive doses of the pills.

I wish you the best, and know it is not easy to change this way, even when you know it is not good for you.

Take care and Peace-Chris