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Originally Posted by lolagrace
Okay. I still don't think she'll answer them in any way that might remotely show herself in a negative light professionally, and those are some pretty loaded questions that could really be used against her later. I suspect you will get more of the same that you've already gotten unfortunately. I just can't imagine any person who has gotten the pretty clear message that their career could be in jeopardy due to their own botched handling of a case openly providing any information that could in any way show them in a negative light if it comes up against a grievance board. You may get answers, but I suspect you won't like them, and probably rightfully so. Between then and now, if she is smart, she's already gotten some legal advice on how to handle further contact which is probably to keep it to a bare minimum if at all. (Of course, her smartness is questionable clearly.) I just hate to see you set yourself up for further hurt here. I could be way off base and I hope for you I am, but this therapist has put herself first through this whole thing and I would be surprised (pleasantly for you though  ) if your questions get answered to your satisfaction. |
I honestly, wholeheartedly, agree with you. I don't think I'm going to get anything from these questions. "If" she answers any of them, it will probably be a b.s. excuse that makes no sense. My guess is she's not going to answer them. Once she reads the questions she'll probably be like "Oh ****! Why did I offer to do this?" And then she'll back out and change her mind.
I'm not to sure she's contacted a lawyer. She asked my advocate if she needed one, but she didn't get one for the county grievance. Or maybe she consulted with one? Idk. I thought she was smart at one point, but I'm not so sure anymore. She's done a lot of dumb things (i.e. offering closure sessions and then withdrawing the offer). And some of it is documented. But maybe I need to give her a little more credit.
Even the apology. I hoghly doubt I will ever get one. That would mean she's admitting to doing something wrong. No, she'll probably give me a b.s. apology like "I'm sorry SP that you felt hurt by the termination". I could see that. Technically, she's already said that.
I just don't know how to get past all of this. I feel like I have to keep trying every which way to get my needs met. And I'm well aware, grievances or not, I probably never get closure. But there's this part of me that won't let go. It wants to fight to stand up for myself. It want to try jumping through all the hoops. I don't know why. Logically, I understand what you all are saying. There's just this drive in me that won't give up.
I wish ex-T would see that. She should know. Look how hard I fought to keep her as my T through Medi-Cal and Optum. I took the fight to senators and people in Sacramento. It made it to the head of Medi-Cal and Optum. If I fought that hard to keep her, why would anyone expect anything less to try to get closure. I will exhaust every avenue until I get my closure or until there are no roads left.
Why won't she give me closure? Is that too much to ask for? Why does she not care about how much I hurt? Why did she stop caring? I'm not going away. I'm not giving up. And I'm following her "rules". I have not made any direct contact with her for 4.5 months per her request. Technically, I'm not even harassing her since she said, and I have email to prove it, that all communication must be made through another professional.
I'm hurting so much! I need this pain to go away. I have to fight. I feel like I will die if I don't.
Btw...still not mad at you lolagrace