Thanks for your advice, all of you. I have noticed that most of you think I am being kind of negative. It helps to be called out on that because I am typically very pessimistic by nature and I can't always tell when something I say or think is negative in some way.

I have another concern and that is the impulsiveness I have been experiencing lately. I have been acting inappropriately sexual toward people I shouldn't, being unable to resist stealing prescription narcotics, not being able to fall asleep, and feeling like I could easily down an whole bottle of pills. I was very close to taking a whole handful of aspirin last night and it really scared me when I realized how close I was to doing something so dangerous without really caring about the consequences. So much so that I almost asked my boyfriend to hide everything in the medicine cabinet and the knives... I am considering admitting myself to the local mental health unit for safety and security. Unfortunately, I wouldn't be able to afford it in my current situation. I may be able to in September. And the fact that I actually want to be admitted is really different to me. The only time I have ever been admitted to the psych ward was when I was 16 for an overdosed (not intentional suicide, just didn't care. Much like the way I am feeling right now). I'm not sure the lamictal is working for me.