Hello people from here. I try not to post here because I don't have PTSD, but I feel I have a lot relating to it.

Let me give you a general description. If you want more detail, look for my post in PTSD (or Complex PTSD) section.

(Warning!!!: This story contains scenes of bullying and verbal abuse. Nothing is described in detail, but for people whom it might trigger. You have been warned.)

Basically, as a young child, I have been bullied both verbally and physically, but mainly verbally (I think only physically like 1-3 times). Then at the end of grade 5, my parents got a divorce. Of course, I didn't know what it meant at the time, and to be honest, I don't truly know when I knew what it meant, but anyways. That was my traumatic turning point. My mom got to see us for 60% while my dad 40. Not only my parents got divorce, but my mom decided to move 4 hours away. Since I lived with my mom more often, I also changed schools. I was kinda happy because of the bullying issues, but I did have one friend that was really nice to me. Then we stayed there for two years. Also, to add in, I had social anxiety disorder underlying since kindergarten. I just recently got social anxiety diagnosed. So I can barely make friends, starting my entire life again with new people, new town, new life situation. Life is really stressful. After me being able to get people to know and at least try to like me after 1 year, life was starting to get better again. I was stilled bullied, just verbally from time-to-time, but I was happy as I could get (which then I was starting to develop persistent depressive disorder so). Then after one more year, my mom decides to get married to someone she was only dating for 1-2 years, makes us all move again to another town an hour away this time with the husband's kids that we only met once before we moved in with each other. It is now 5 hours away from my dads, and I basically go there every weekend. My mom was the one that decided to move so far up, but then she is diagnosed with a rare disease that she had basically her entire life due to head trauma as a kid. My mom gets angry a lot and likes to blame her health issue on it a lot. Yes, I understand you can't control it, and yes, it is a symptom, but it shouldn't be used as an excuse for all your problems. Anyways, she complains to my dad about anything through email almost everyday. When my mom is mad at my dad, she tells me what she is mad at by phone, and she says not nice things usually. I am sad about it, but I live. The day after that though my mom is saying how much she misses me. Sigh. I am so confused.

So that is my story. I am so stressed all the time because of this divorce issue that I feel like I am losing myself inside. I feel I am getting more insane the longer this lasts. I can't talk about mental health with my family because it is stigmatized throughout my household. My dad doesn't say anything about it, which is a good and bad thing. He doesn't try to support me and still makes fun of my social anxiety, even though he knows I have a disorder. I am trying, but he is expecting me to do too much too quickly. Same with my mom.

I have looked for some name that would describe me and my symptoms so I can get the right treatment. PTSD would be an exact fit if this would be considered under the first category: has to be death, violent, or sexual (pretty sure). So then I looked at adjustment disorder, and I thought it would fit me because of divorce and stuff, but then it states that it can't be longer than 6 months and this has gone on for 5 years. So I moved onto specific trauma- and stressor-related disorders. The closest one I found was adjustment disorder persisting longer than 6 months, but then it follows with "without prolonged duration of stressor" and I was like "this stressor is still going on for 5 years, so I don't think this one would work". My conclusion would be unspecified trauma- and stressor-related disorder. Again, I know most of you will say only a MH professional can diagnose you. I know. But I don't want to bring this issue up until I am 18. Then I don't have to tell my parents

Thank you for reading all the way to here. I was just wondering on your opinion(s) about this and what you think I should do. Is this even considered a trauma? I know it doesn't really "matter" on the label, but having some knowledge what it might be before diagnosis would help me understand myself and prepare myself. Also, it probably matters for medication. Thanks again.