Hey Breezy-Day

I was just thinking these thoughts yesterday. There's so much childhood trauma in my life and I think I tend, subconsciously, to push people away. I lost a friend 8 months ago to cancer. I also dismissed a friend of 8 years because she just didn't want to avail her time to me. Another friend of almost 40 years just wouldn't stop telling me to get on disability. I didn't feel like she ever really had MY best interests at heart...

Fast forward to now...there are acquaintances at work that I think might be decent friends and fun to hang with. One is a complete gossip queen, so that puts me off. The other just tends to be friendly at work and has not really made herself available. I'm not going to keep on that one since we work together.

It's odd that I've been thinking of all this and last night was sort of upset about it. I am super friendly at work with the guests that I deal with. Perhaps a friendship would come of those interactions? I'm going to make a list of potential friends and go from there. I also think I come on or get to feeling needy and maybe that puts people off. I don't need to feel instantly bonded when I've just started to get to know someone.

I work part-time and it's just me and my college-age daughters. I want to spend open time with them before they leave the nest in a few years. But I do need a life outside motherhood, work, and my down time.

Let me know how things go for you...Cat And now it's coffee time...