I'm clueless when it comes to love, but I couldn't help agreeing with what pegasus said. I'm really sorry about what you went through, and I know it'll take a long time to heal.

I have a question: you said your wife left you for another man, but did she do this after the divorce?

What she felt for you, despite what the woman said, was probably not nearly as strong as what you felt. Looking into her eyes and seeing love can never give true answers, although it's very romantic and correct to see in people you know for absolute sure that they love you in return. You really can't guess who a person is by looking into their eyes. Plus, there was some strange signs. She fell in love with a man she hadn't seen in person yet, although she has a young daughter? And she brought you home for your first visit? I personally wouldn't bring a man home the first time I'm seeing him, no matter how much we grew to love each other over the phone. Then she immediately had sex with you? I can see how strongly and pure your intentions were, but it sounds like you already had an image of love in family in your head that you really wanted them to fit. It sounds like she might have been very lonely or missed sex, or both. Her getting mad over your medications and then parting with you forever gives me the impression that her feelings for you weren't there. Maybe she realized how fast she let your relationship move without reciprocating your feelings and left.

Either way, I think you're better off and deserve someone who loves you back. It's very normal for relationships to end early, and I recommend you don't fall in love so fast until you know you've found the right woman for you. Things change, people change, and no ones perfect.

Also, have you seen any therapists? It sounds like you've had a tough life with little support, which may be the reason why you are in so much pain for losing her.