No, that has just been my experience. I think my homocidal feelings towards my parents were the thick of it. They have both done some horrendous things to both myself and my younger brother, who I love dearly. But did I have the right to take their lives? Would it be for the good of others if I did? But could I justify the pain it would cause my brother, to lose a parent and his sister, just in order to avenge the two of us? Would it be better to take from him his father, to protect him from his father, or would it be better to sacrifice myself to protect him, but in doing so gamble with the possibility that I might fail? And who would be the true victor in the end, if someone lost their body, but I lost my own humanity? Was that the goal all along, to turn me into a monster, just like them? Those were the sorts of thoughts I wrangled with while I was on fire. And I just feel like Nons cannot possibly understand, especially if they have never been in a position where they had to answer such questions. I don't look down on Nons, but only the true fools among them would look down on me.