I am so afraid to tell anyone my horrible secret. I stopped self injuring years ago, but recently I am not doing so well. Everyone in my life keeps saying how I am doing well and coping well. I'm not. I think I may have traded SI in for an obcession with how many calories I eat in a day and how much exercise I can fit into a day. Also if thoes calories and plus some are burnt from the exercise. I was running at 3 in the morning. I know this is not normal. Its the only thing I have control over right know. I will be the perfect model thin wife, best mom, with the cleanest house. I am so afraid to ask for help or admit I am not doing well because of all the positive uplifting support I am getting from everyone.