Hello all. I am 29 years old, and am Bipolar with Aspberger's. I have struggled with my Bipolar for about 15 years(I believe puberty helped it surface). Since then, I went from a mild mannered little girl to a sometimes stark raving mad banshee. As a teen, everyone chalked up my 'outbursts' as being an overly dramatic typical teenager. Well, I never outgrew it. It actually took me about a decade to figure out that my meltdowns were a byproduct of my Bipolar. I travelled a lot from age 17-27 so I did not have a steady relationship with any doctors. So I tried coping with the ups and downs by myself mainly.

Well, I am in a stable environment--that is not moving across the country anymore. I went through a terrible divorce two years ago, and for that two years was pretty much a long depressive episode. I was able to come out of that state and back to my "normal" cycles. Which is generally a few weeks of neutrality, a few days to a week of depression, with some manic and mixed episodes(those are always sporadic), and back to being neutral.

I do have meltdowns at least once a week, sometimes two or three times. These are always triggered by what I see as stress. Usually that is minor arguments with friends or family. Everyone knows what I go through, and I always warn them to back off or I will get out of control. It is really taxing for me to go through these...it takes a few hours to an entire day for me to regain composure. Of course afterwards I am exhausted physically and mentally.

Currently I am taking Prozac 40mg and just added Wellbutrin 75mg 6 weeks ago. I was feeling zombie like and comfort eating, so my NP decided to give Wellbutrin a go. I was on Depakote and Celexa, but switched to the Prozac because I became pregnant last year. Now I am breastfeeding. I love this combo, but well...15 years of meltdowns and still no solution. Is it possible to just take something during the meltdown to calm me? The only thing that does that now sadly is food. I honestly don't see them going away no matter what I take for long term maintenance. Maybe if I become a hermit I will be without stress. Until then, any advice?

Sorry so long winded for a first post. A little exasperated. :P