Have you ever had treatment for PTSD? I did exposure therapy (it has some specific name the type I did but I forget it) 3 years ago and while it was really hard to do and took me a lot longer than someone who only had PTSD (also I have what on here would be called complex PTSD although I'd never heard the term before I came here) it was completely worth it. PTSD is always going to be part of my life but it is so much less of my life now than it was before. It took a lot of convincing for me to agree to do it and it isn't a period of my life I look back on and think "that was the best time I've ever had" but it did help so much. I rarely have nightmares or "flashbacks" (I hate that word for some reason) and I don't get stuck in my past nearly as much. I still have scars and things that are problems from those times but the memories themselves are no longer so painful.

I don't know how you find someone who can do this. My therapist took the training and I was the first person he did it on; I think he partly took it to help me since he doesn't do a lot of PTSD-esque stuff now. I know that it was also hard for him and that someone made it easier for me to see that he struggled too with what I was dealing with.

If you want to know more ask and I'll tell you more about what I did.