I think you should give it a try. In my experience, the busier I am, the better. I can't "park" emotions so easily either, but I managed 2 classes a semester with 3 kids a part time job and being separated from my H. Without the distractions of therapy and school I would have had too much time to sink into despair.

I do understand the lack of therapist options given your BPD dx and especially for the eating disorder. I'm in Boston and am interning at an ED clinic and the Ts with real ED experience are very rare.

I think it might be risky for you to go completely without a therapist, however, even if it's only for months check ins or even less. I think Divine's suggestion to keep the borderline part of your diagnosis out of it initially. If you state it as if it's your primary diagnosis (which it shouldn't be anyway for insurance purposes), then it can scare some Ts since aside from DBT Ts, most don't have enough expertise to do that kind of work. Insurance isn't usually generous with benefits for clients with personality disorders either, so sadly that could be a deterrent as well. So while you are interviewing Ts maybe give depression and anxiety as your issues and save the rest for later. Many people enter into therapy giving only the basic, least intense info - most is uncovered well after trust has been established and you feel connected.