I'm sorry Fuzzy...I know the interminable sense of hopelessness and loneliness gets profoundly painful. It's just not supposed to hurt this long. It's NOT supposed to hurt in the present...
You have such a sensitive and empathetic soul I can see where your frustration and anger and fear and pain can come from. Just know that you are NOT alone and we struggle beside you every day. And if I (we) don't thank you enough for you indomitable will and curing hugs, than I know I'm sorry. Your hugs mean more than you'll ever know so many days when I'm ready to do the stupid.

Gentle hugs as always,
Wysteria Blue