Oh yes totally. It is never ever just one flat feeling. Never. The depression itself cycles. I can be on the floor in the morning and out to dinner genuinely smiling in the evening. It doesn't mean the depression is "over". It just isn't a flat fixed state. I think that is one of the hardest things for loved ones because they figure if we smile or make pancakes or whatever than it must be over. Nope. Not how it works.

And often looking back I see how what I thought was me baseline and getting depressions was probably actually one big depression.

Ugh read my sig. It's ridick