I have done my initial post, some replies *, some dailies

I think what worries me more than the crushing nihilistic thoughts are the fading of empathy. I have trouble feeling for others. At all.

At the Nuremberg trials a reporter covering them said, when he tried to come up with a definition of evil, that, in essence, evil is a lack of empathy. An inability to feel your fellow humans' pains

It makes interviews for jobs an issue. They need to connect with you on a personal level and I cannot seem to do that. Which makes me more upset, which spirals me down into the void.

And evil comes to those that evil do. I am not a bad person. Yet.

* mostly I cannot because when I am here I cannot offer any helpful platitudes or advice... I suck at that. Well, that among many other things