I would say I WANT to give up smoking. The only reason I really still smoke is because I'm addicted and I recognise that fact. The thing is cravings have a way of convincing you that you enjoyed smoking when actually that's not really the case. I just like not going into withdrawal. That's why I think NRT might be a better route because I found it minimizes cravings if done correctly. I know my first experience of successfully quitting won't be mirrored in this quit, but I still think it bodes well especially with the tools I've picked up in my latest attempt.

If someone was to ask me how am I feeling, I would answer "I don't know". That's exactly the same answer I'll give here... I'm not the best at reaching for answers like these.

To me it seems that they just appear out of nowhere. Maybe once or twice there have been residual triggers but generally not. I have noticed over my many attempts to quit though that they tend to come in the mornings. By the time it gets to evening I can manage quite happily on NRT or with medication. I guess this knowledge is at least something.

I know that fighting cravings requires one to actively deal with them rather than being passive and just waiting for them to go away. I do find the troublesome ones however are the ones that seem to last forever. People say cravings only last a few minutes but that is bollocks... you can get a general feeling of wanting a cigarette which may not be an intense craving but wears you down over time. That's what has been causing me to relapse.

Thanks for the support and advice...

I know I can do it, it's just a matter of keeping trying until I nail it. I feel like it won't be long before that happens either... they do say the more times you try to quit, the more you're likely to succeed.