Are you able to get set up with a therapist and/or pdoc? There is help out there, but it can just be difficult and/or scary sometimes to reach out and find it. I had to resort to Google maps, searching for "psychiatrist" in my city area and then browsing through the little bubbles that popped up on the map. Whatever works, though. Sometimes making the phone calls can be the hardest part. You might need to ask around to see if anyone has a sliding scale. If you're unemployed, you might need to search online for how to apply for Medicaid or some other form of assistance. It can be really tough for someone who is in the midst of a mental health crisis, but you can do it. If push comes to shove, you can go to the ER and ask if they have a psychiatric nurse or anyone who can help you go through the process of applying to available assistance resources. Just don't give up, there are options.