Hi,
I've been having these bad dreams, with my father in them. He's always trying to hurt/kill me... I really don't quite understand why I am having these dreams so very often. Its like I am afraid of him...and I don't quite know why. My boyfriend thinks I was sexually abused and I'm just not telling him...but...I think I would remember if I was,wouldn't I? Well I was looking at stuff,about children who are,and it looks like I was....all the symptoms and everything...but I don't understand. I use to be "daddy's lil girl" then like at age 3 I became afraid of him... I remember being his lil girl...and I remember being afraid of him, but I have no clue as to why. I know I was scared everytime he used his belt to whoop me.... the sound of it snapping scared me. But would that give me dreams and everything,and still at 16 be afraid? I remember when I was 3 or 4...I was playing with my dolls infront of my parents and my mom was like "What are you doing??" and I said "they're having sex!"I think I was rather young to even know about it.... but I did....so I'm really confused. I also remember asking my mother if I was fat,not long after that...and fearing I was pregnant. I begged my bro and sis to punch me thinking it'd just go away if I was pregnant. I know I was younger than 5. Do you think you can be sexually abused,and remember all of that, but not remember it happening....(being abused) or if it did?? Any help would be well appreciated. Thanks.