I don't know if it's adrenaline or anxiety, but I don't feel very well right now. I just realized that lumped above my exhusband's head are two female bosses. Naturally, of course, my ex can be abrasive. And with a history with me and all that happened, I get how he'd be hard to manage. Prejudices run deep, of course, of course. However, his personal life is just that, his personal life. I reserve every right to hold resentment, if I so choose, that is a result of marital discourse through many years. Yet, at some point, I must have cared enough to have wanted to marry him and start a family. We all have our shortcomings. Does he work? Yep, he's been a workhorse as long as I can remember. Does he have a likeable quality that when out and about many stop and say hi and chat a while? Yes. Did he truly make work errors? No, no work errors are at the surface of any of this. Two Sunday nights ago, he fell asleep well before 9, as is typical. He missed a call out for that Monday . Refused to sign a write up because this one boss said he's on call 24/7. Then he just didn't feel right traveling to Maine for a 'mandatory' clambake. One, Maine does drudge up sadness thanks to me. Two, he does become uncomfortable traveling long distances with strangers. So this morning they called, said there'd be a meeting Monday and they were going to offer a demotion four communities away, not even in adequate public commuting distance or he could quit, but they wouldn't offer severance as they had everyone else that they canned since the take over. He called choking back tears.
I still haven't seen my name change for insurance to match my license. Soooo, took myself and my three sons to the corporate office to see what forms I needed to fill out took a copy of my license and phone number. I was as sweet and calm as I could be. The boys were reserved as they typically are in an office.
My ex called said the boss came by. He can keep his job if apologizes about the clambake. That he brought it on himself, not showing that he's a team player. I told him, sorry you didn't mean to offend them. Hangups, yadda yadda...he said i need my job. My kids, my kids...calling Monday to express his apology.

Yes, there would go child support at $800 month plus health insurance for all of us. State insurance bites the big one, imo.

Yes my anxiety is sky rocketing