I knew it was too good to be true. I finally found a good pdoc who takes me feelings into account when he makes decisions about my meds and how I feel about taking them. Whats more-I finally found an amazing t who I recently finally trust him to talk about anything. Ive only seen him since March and I knew it was too good to be true.

He told me yesterday hes leaving the clinic for private practice. I didn't really react in his office when he asked me how I felt about it. I said I understood and he needs to do whats right for him but Id miss him. Then he asked if there was something I wasn't telling him. Im sad. I had a feeling inside he would be leaving. Hes the best one Ive ever seen and we had a real connection and hes really helped me.

Im happy for him but selfishly sad. I hate change and starting over. He said he wants me to start seeing jenn (one of the dbt group facilitators.) Apparently she knows a lot about me from him and he thinks it would be best for me.

I guess.

I cried in the car. I hate change.