changes... one thing, then another... no permanence other than change... i suppose...... seed, bud, flower, seeds and nourishment...

im sorry fro your loss... i've had it happen to me a few times and it sucks... one moment, this person knows you best, another you're set up with a total newbie... uncertainties...... this person does not know me... and yet, he turned out to be a great help in the end oddly enough...... but being thrown in the dark rarely feels comfortable... unknown... not knowing... no security... no understanding... well, when i was alone, at least... it helped to have people be there...

i completely agree... ive met some well-meaning super nice people, and yet the fact that ... oh here we go again... is enough to leave someone unsettled...... having felt like you had some stability and now its gone... BUT!

have faith in your initial doc... chances are he knows this person qualifies for you to feel this connection again eventually...