Before anyone asks, yes, I do see a psychiatrist already, and yes, I am going to be making an appointment sooner than when I was scheduled (two months from now) to request additional testing and to see if a different combination of meds would be a good idea.

Currently I am diagnosed with Moderate to Severe Recurrent Major Depressive Disorder, Dysthymia, EDNOS, and mild ADD and mild anxiety. I take 20 mg Prozac once a day, Methylfolate (or whatever the name is of the expensive vitamin thing) every other day, and generic Adderall 10 mg and generic Xanax .25-.75 mg as needed.

So not really anything overly weird... I guess.

Anyways, in the past few months... things have gotten weirder.

New physical symptoms like twitching and heart palpitations as well as increased levels of fatigue hitting me out of nowhere. May or may not be related.

And with mental symptoms, my lows have gotten lower, and now include tactile hallucinations, some visual hallucinations (rarer) of things like lights, maggots, and fleas. I have had increased paranoia thinking people were following me or after me... this fourth of july I was almost completely convinced (still able to tell myself it wasn't real, so not a full loss of reality I guess) that I was under siege. Never been in war or have a traumatic even involving loud noises/gunshots. And I think what was two weeks ago, I felt like my heart had stopped. So I took nearly 200 mg of adderall over the course of 12 hours because I was trying to feel it again. Like... I know it sounds completely crazy... but I really thought my heart had stopped... but nobody would believe me...

Nothing that bad recently, but on and off I'll loose chunks of time, last night was the longest where I couldn't even make sense of it. Usually I can make sense of what must have happened even though I have no "real" memory of it... this was just... I was in bed, and still in bed, and when I got up, realized that somehow I had fed the dogs and cats and gone outside to my car to grab a bottle of soda I had in there.

I am definitely going to my psych to bring all of this up... because these things... mixed with just extreme lows, vision blurring, the world looking fake and unreal at times, having head knowledge but none of it really making sense... I can't just try to function through this anymore.

But... I'm bad at trying to explain things in person...

Any thoughts or advice?