I'm gonna have to look for that, thanks!

Yeah...I dunno. It's been a few days since I've been out of the hospital. I'm not depressed. I'm not manic. But the delusions and paranoia are still there. But maybe I'm depressed and just don't know it. Or maybe I'm hypomanic. Or something. Why is it so hard to tell? I have no clue what my "normal" is. Most of my left I've been depressed so I really don't know what normal feels like. It's only been the past couple years that I've been dealing with mania. Before that, I was always depressed. But I don't feel depressed right now. I'm pretty energetic today but not so energetic that I'm restless and agitated. My delusions are getting more complex and expanding...but it's not so severe right now that I can't manage...obviously since I'm aware they aren't real at the moment. I think this schizoaffective should be treated more as a rule-out rather than jumping on the diagnosis without enough time and evidence.