The sound of people eating - I can't stand it. I either cry or get fuming angry. Its a nightmare, and effects my entire life. My T knows I have this, but we haven't discussed it much. (Thats my choice, I don't discuss any of this stuff with him).

Im UK based, and pay for my own therapy - Nothing they offered on the NHS was any use for me. It was all CBT based, which just isn't effective with me.

I want to be able to forgive the primary abusers - I certainly have it in me to forgive them. But what I can't forgive, is that they never apologise. They never change. Their attitude towards me never changes. If they were to apologise, and seek help to change their behaviour, I would instantly forgive them and do everything in my power to support them. But they don't want that. Its easier for them to lose me from their lives, than to deal with their issues and change their behaviour.