I'm GLAD you didn't delete it
Oh all sorts of things trigger.... the seat belt of the car, people in the store, noises, smells, specific sounds, mom, certain words - all the regular ptsd stuff.
We also can take instant dislikes to people. It happens. I think that gut sense is there for a reason. I do try to not put it on them, but if 22 swaps in, well.... it's pretty obvious. And with one of the littles biting when anyone comes too close.... yeah. THIS IS MY SPACE.
I'm just now back in with a therapist that might actually be able to DO therapy -first in 15 months (and 10 therapists). I'm starting to tell her little bits of info - see how she handles it - and she tells me how she would approach it.
I thought the UK was doing better on the therapy front than the US. :/
I get that often - does she have a name? (If you mean your littles or angries)... yes.... SHE DOES, and she will TELL you when she's READY. LOL.
Hiss.
I go through the 'go it alone' or 'keep trying to get help' query. Stuck with keep trying. Good thing, cuz now my superb psych nurse is quitting. After the 3rd I won't have any providers who actually know and understand DID or who know my system (unless she and I get accepted to a DID treatment trial we're working to get in to - hope hope hope).

I haven't forgiven my primary abusers yet.... or even the not-so-primary ones. I did find a moment of potential compassion for him once.... I saw he was hurting, too. But that's as close as I can get to 'forgiveness'. I guess I could call it 'acknowledgement'.

Lots of love to you and yours FUZZY!!!! (You've been on my mind today all day).