I'm Matt...

I'm trapped in my mind
Even when I'm happy it's there all the time
I can't have friends
I can't have love
Because I know at some point I'll change
I'll turn on them with so much pain
I miss having a life
I reside in a rhealm
Not alive but death not allowed
I've been cursed and betrayed
The God that made me doesn't love me
I'm his cruel joke...