It is to my understanding that most people who suffered sexual abuse and sexual trauma at a very early age--have 1 of 2 personalities:

A. Very outgoing
B. Isolating from the world

There doesn't appear to be a middle ground.
I isolate. And, I struggle very much as a Professor. I have no problem delivering lectures and giving art demonstrations in class. However, when it comes to socially communicating--I suck at it.
I do not socialize with others.
I go home and create, read, write, etc.
To say that I lack the skills to maintain an intimate relationship physically,
mentally, and emotionally is an understatement. I suck at it.

I was the continuous actress in both of my marriages.
Both lasted less than 2 years. I knew I had issues and it wasn't their fault.

I haven't been on a date in a decade. I do not make myself available
to the real world. I isolate. And, it's quite easy to do when Twitter, WordPress, and the internet are always readily available. I am a Professor of Design. So, it isn't unnatural for me to be a busy body creating websites, posting on my wordpress blog, and actively involved on Twitter.

However, I feel at times that Isolation forms a happy duet with Depression.
Hanging out with it all the time...seems to depress me.

My therapist suggested that I start attending church/ temple.
Are you a spiritual person?

I have been attending now for over a year. It has helped with my socializing skills. Obviously each religious community has holiday events--potlucks, etc that you can attend. The temple I go to even has movie night once a month. I haven't met anyone yet that I would consider having a relationship with. But--I feel that I am in a safe environment. And, I am being social--not isolating all of the time. I am with people who have the same, spiritual beliefs as I do, and I am enjoying myself.

Would you ever consider this as an option?