Well, things have been going a little better the last few days. The last time we argued, instead of getting angry, I cried. I noticed that made a difference in how he responded to and treated me. I don't know why and it freaks me out.

PtE, I've thought about leaving in the past and even did for a few months while pg with my oldest. I am in a very BAD situation at the present time though. I take online classes and he pays for my internet, so if I left, I'd have to drop out and begin to pay my $12,000.00 loan off-that I don't have. I also run a MK business out of my home. I've invested a lot of money into it and if I left now, I'd be put in a worse situation with no means of transportation since he pays for that too. Other than the MK thing, I have no job. I have sparatic income that is far from steady and no one to care for my kids (whom I'd trust) when I had to get a job.

I just feel TRAPPED! Ugh!