I know and understand the feeling of the delusion melting away. Don't be embarrassed by what you believed!!! And the hyper-energy as you put it, I tend to say superstitious or spiritual as I am not a religious person and tend to say the universe or "everything" instead.
I have felt both sad and embarrassed when my delusions stopped along with really confused because how could something so true be so not true?

Also, just food for thought, I agree with everyone else in that your writing is excellent in transferring your emotion.