Well, I do know why. I'm furious at that clinic for cutting me off benzos with no taper plan in 2013. And every time I go out I get triggered and it's torture for me. And I can't present myself the way I used to, or look nice. It's just a horrible mess every time I go out and I never go anyplace I'd want to go, just to that horrible clinic or other stressful medical appointments. That's why I'm scared I think. But I don't know what to do about the fear.