I've "left" him, so to speak. Not that he'll even notice or care of course, but I was causing too much trouble on his page and I'm sure he and everyone else can do without that.

It's kind of easier to leave when it's for his sake, rather than my own. Yesterday I just thought about something else all day instead. It was suicide, but still. Today I can't stop thinking about him, again. I just want to tell him I love him, but it's not like he'd care. I mean I knew what I was getting into by letting myself fall for him, it's stupid and ridiculous, especially at my age. It's not like I even know him, I'm just stupid.

And it's not like anything matters really anyway. It's just things that happen, but they don't mean anything.