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Old Aug 01, 2015, 10:50 PM
CrazyGirl6371 CrazyGirl6371 is offline
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Member Since: Aug 2014
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 93
My depression is very severe, more severe than I remember. I'm losing interest in things that once brought me joy. I'm lethargic. I feel like I'm in a fog, a haze. I was on an SSRI, but it has stopped working, and I have had my dose upped. Still, not working... Is this how it's going to be? Am I just going to feel this way forever? Is this what life has to be, now? I've been through so many medications. I don't see how I can ever feel better. I feel like I've reached a plateau, but a low one.. I just keep going down and down and down. I can't get much lower. I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts, a lot of temptation to cut, but I'm trying very hard not to. Please, tell me this gets better. Can I be fixed? Will I have to deal with this forever, this horrible feeling? Does it get better? Please, someone, give me some hope. I need it so badly... I'm afraid this is just how my life will be, and I don't like it. I've had depression for so long. I thought that it could actually get better, and it did for a while, but it's so bad, now. I feel like I can't function. I can't concentrate. I'm so depressed. Please, someone, comment. Let me know if you ever declined until you feel like you've reached a "plateau"... What can I expect? Do I have to live like this? :'(
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Medications (Daily):
Prolixin - 1mg
Gabapentin - 400mg
Prozac - 30mg

Diagnoses:
Depression - Severe with Psychotic Features
Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Rule-Out Borderline Personality Disorder

Other:
Self-Harm
Sleep Issues
Childhood Emotional/Mental Abuse

Sadly, that's all there really is to me...
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