tired, irritable and unfocused. nice busy day yesterday out with the fam. came home to loud partying down by the river which makes me anxious. sometimes feel like the hydroxyzine makes me feel hungover the next day, hence how i feel now. for some reason lately i find that wearing a hat or bandana makes me less anxious, like it is something more to hide behind and keeps me from obsessing over cutting my hair. it's like i put it on my head and feel like ahh, like it is somehow holding my brain together. weird. but good too.