It´s now summer and I spend part of my summer at my mum's. I´m 35 years old and stuck in life. I have a university degree but have been unemployed for several years, much due to that I feel my personality doesn´t fit into the field I choosed to study.

I´m in some kind of life crisis, I´ve spent most of my earlier years studying, getting good grades and I´ve lived a quite isolated life. I never had any best friends and when older I had a few friends when studying but at the moment I have only one acquaintance, no real friends.

As I have no money to go on my own holiday I spend part of the summer on my own in my apartment and in the city I live, I live quite far from my relatives and family. Although I don´t really like it I spend the other part at my mum´s. It feels like being 5 or 10 years old again, I feel I have no real life.

I´ve never had a relationship, I don´t look "ugly", I´m not disabled but I´ve never sought out for a relationship. I´m now really lost, I don't fully know how I am and I don´t have the strength to pull myself out of this on my own.It´s not just like "decide searching for a date" or such, my problems run deeper.

I went to a therapist but she terminated me and I´ve then searched for many months for a new T but haven´t found one. I´m completely stuck, I don´t know where I fit in, I feel a lot of pain and anxiety when thinking about the future.

I also feel I´ve lost a lot of years, just focusing on my studies and now I have almost "nothing".

Does anyone recognise this or felt like this? What did you do?