Well didn't think I'd say anymore on the subject, but I have discovered in myself the ability to be honest. I guess I find it hard because I live in a very small town and it is easy for people to spread gossip. I have been here for 2 years though so anyone who lives around me, it would be obvious that I don't go out to work much.
Anyhow, I did meet someone else today, and when it came up I just decided to say mostly how it is.
It's been so long since I tried meeting anyone, that I found it difficult to have conversation. He was very very nice and friendly. By telling him how I am, being honest about what I'm like, I give him, or whoever else I meet, the real me, and a chance to exit. I do think naturally we all want to present the best version of ourselves when first meeting, but I honestly am getting older, and I don't care if someone likes me for me or not. He said the same thing. We really do just have to be ourselves.
Thank you for listening and for the help. I'm glad I asked, because it made me more certain that I need to just say it as it is, and be me.

oh, and maybe I'm not that bad, I did get offered dinner this week so we'll see, and I'm kind of proud of myself for actually meeting and being honest.