It seems like everyone's having babies, except me. I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2011 that almost killed me. Had to have emergency surgery and lost a liter of blood. Not something I want to happen again. I tried getting pregnant again in 2013 and did fertility drugs, but no luck. I only lasted a couple months before having to go back on all my meds cause I landed in the hospital from a melt down. I just don't see a feasible solution on being able to get pregnant. I also have a bad back and can hardly lift 10 lbs, so I'd be bedridden for most of the pregnancy. It just makes me depressed because it's something I can't do. I feel bad for my husband because he wants a kid and I feel like I can't help him out with that and so I feel sometimes that he's going to leave me.