Is there any specific reason why you don't want your parents to see you cry? Do they know about your depression at all and if they do what have they said?

Are you getting professional help from a doctor or therapist?

Can your friends come and see you at home or somewhere where you won't get anxious?

Lots of questions, you don't have to answer them, they are just things to think about.

Support from friends and family play a very important role in recovering from depression. If it is possible please find someone irl you can open up to.