Thank you all.

I am trying to loose hope in finding someone, but if things didnt work out with us then who? She said she accepted me even though I had BPD. About 4 months ago she was fairly harsh and I did have some choice words very angry, but got back together 6 weeks ago and she said she is still bothered by that and she doesnt know if that will ever happen again.

I am really having a hard time knowing that my BPD has cost me so much my whole life. I am 39 and just almost convincing myself getting involved is not worth the hurt and setbacks any more