i think you guys are SO right... i just got a very distressing phone call and all i can think about is how i don't have anyone to be with... to just be.

it's wrong... so wrong to be so unsure of him, so uncertain if he is even the right T for me, but needing someone so bad... and then all that needing has to be crammed into one hour a week, if i am lucky enough to have the money for once per week.

today has been so hard... at work i was in so much pain that on my lunchbreak i just lay on the floor in the lunchroom and cried. i didn't need this phone call too. life is a mess. i want a break from strategy but the "blah blah blah" keeps intruding.

thanks for being supportive.