i literally couldnt watch i heart huckabees. idk why. maybe i need to rewatch it. i havent been able to watch a lot of films this year though. so far Girlhood has triggered me. i heart huckabees has been boring. and jurassic world has been a hit with me. idk whats wrong with me. im going dumb. help me im listening to mainstream rap and pop music all day right now.

theres nothing wrong with rap. it has its good sides with underground rap and its poetry but mainstream has me in it right now idk why. and pop too. i dont even listen to my rock anymore or 90s rock.

whats happening to me?
its like recovery is making me actually normal.