Another month, that means I'm now 3 years 10 months free. Somehow. It's been so hard lately but the thought of anyone accidentally seeing and getting mad at me for it all over again is stopping me. And cos it's been so long. And cos I'm just too tired anyway to get back into all of that, having to hide and lie, I just don't have the strength right now. 2 more months and it will be 4 years (I hope) I guess I'll just aim for that now when I feel weak.